The third trimester has brought with it its friend exhaustion. It's growing more & more difficult to sleep at night and I wake up almost every hour. It probably doesn't help that I'm having a lot of sugar and caffeine during the day. The baby senses that, too, and has become a whole lot more active these past few weeks! I'm able to see her move on the outside now, and she can sometimes keep me entertained for quite awhile. I think she has an exercise routine, involving jumping jacks and somersaults, that she performs each night when I lay down to go to sleep. My coworkers are my gauge at how much I am growing, since they see me every day, and this week, they've all been saying how it seems I really popped out. One even pointed out my swollen feet. I appreciated that. :-)
We have been slowly but surely preparing baby's room for her arrival. The painting is finished and everything will soon be back in place. I still have a lot of organizing of the closets to do too. I have a lot of ideas, but when I get the time to do things, I'm just too tired to put them into action. We are going to pick up the crib this weekend. I hope to also go ahead and get the mattress and at least a sheet, and maybe also the diaper changing pad with some of the gift cards and money we got at the shower. Then we can at least have some semblance of a nursery! All the preparations are making me very excited for her arrival.
I recently heard about an acquaintance who is also about 29 weeks pregnant who just found out her baby has an omphalocele, which is a birth defect in which the baby's intestines and some other vital organs develop outside of the baby's body. Other struggles with the heart and lungs also result. It's suddenly very scary to me that I have no idea how my baby is really developing in me. I haven't had the chance to see her for 10 weeks, and though the dr. has no indication that anything is wrong, would they have a way of knowing without seeing an ultrasound? Now, I chose not to do the amniocentisis or any other of the early tests for birth defects, but now I'm questioning that decision. I know that God has a perfect plan for my little one, but what if that plan involves some sort of birth defect or health issue? Each time I imagine my baby after she's born, I'm imagining a perfectly formed, beautiful little girl. But what if she's not? After all the planning and preparation for a "normal" baby, will we be prepared if something's not quite right? I am not going to spend a lot of time worrying or obsessing about this, since that would be pointless. I have to remain confident that my faith is strong enough to handle whatever may come.
We have been slowly but surely preparing baby's room for her arrival. The painting is finished and everything will soon be back in place. I still have a lot of organizing of the closets to do too. I have a lot of ideas, but when I get the time to do things, I'm just too tired to put them into action. We are going to pick up the crib this weekend. I hope to also go ahead and get the mattress and at least a sheet, and maybe also the diaper changing pad with some of the gift cards and money we got at the shower. Then we can at least have some semblance of a nursery! All the preparations are making me very excited for her arrival.
I recently heard about an acquaintance who is also about 29 weeks pregnant who just found out her baby has an omphalocele, which is a birth defect in which the baby's intestines and some other vital organs develop outside of the baby's body. Other struggles with the heart and lungs also result. It's suddenly very scary to me that I have no idea how my baby is really developing in me. I haven't had the chance to see her for 10 weeks, and though the dr. has no indication that anything is wrong, would they have a way of knowing without seeing an ultrasound? Now, I chose not to do the amniocentisis or any other of the early tests for birth defects, but now I'm questioning that decision. I know that God has a perfect plan for my little one, but what if that plan involves some sort of birth defect or health issue? Each time I imagine my baby after she's born, I'm imagining a perfectly formed, beautiful little girl. But what if she's not? After all the planning and preparation for a "normal" baby, will we be prepared if something's not quite right? I am not going to spend a lot of time worrying or obsessing about this, since that would be pointless. I have to remain confident that my faith is strong enough to handle whatever may come.
29 weeks
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