Positively Blessed

Completely expecting it to be negative again, I took a second pregnancy test the morning of Dec. 29th. My period was 5 days past due, but the test I took on the day it was due was negative. This explains my shock when the test was not negative, but showed 2 pink lines. I’m pregnant! My first thought was, “I don’t believe it. It’s actually positive.” It really took most of the day for the shock to wear off, and I still don’t think I’m completely prepared for everything to come, but my tender breasts and achy are a preview of what’s to come. Its been hard to sleep the past few nights as my thoughts bounced back and forth between, “I can’t do this,” and “Oh my gosh, I’m a mother!” Not to mention it gets uncomfortable to lay on one side for too long. I think the biggest shock is that we really didn’t even try! I stopped taking birth control exactly one month ago. I have no idea how long my regular cycle- sans birth control- really is. But apparently God’s perfect timing allowed us to be very fertile with very little waiting period.

Brett was with me during the test and I think he too was in shock. He kept on staring at the pink lines as if they would go away. He was incredibly excited. We celebrated with sparkling cider.

We really debated over who to tell and when. We really did want to wait until we were out of the "safety zone," but that seems like so long! I still have an uncertainty that its even true. The line was faint, it happened so quick... I know there's rarely ever a false positive pregnancy test, but I keep reasoning with myself that it can't possibly be true. At first we decided we were just going to tell our closest friends. We told Elizabeth & Scott. Then we told two other couples that were at our New Year's Eve Party Monday.

We had dinner with my parents Saturday, the day we found out, and it was sooo hard not to tell them then but we still wanted to wait. We told them yesterday on New Year's Day. They were pretty excited, but I think in shock also, simply because it was kind of unexpected!

We're probably not going to tell anyone else until after my 1st doctor's appointment Jan. 15th. I feel pretty different at work, like my whole life is about to change. It seems that everyone already just knows, but I know that is just my imagination.

According to various websites, I'm about 5 weeks along right now, which will put me due early September. Of course, I will have to wait another two weeks before my appointment.